Such a long long way to go, where I'm going I don't know...

Hey hey hey!
Didn't have time to post in here yesterday. I hung out at my neighbours house the whole afternoon and spent the nigth at my friends house play rock band, eating pizza, talking, listening to music...it was kinda cool. I had tons of fun. I must admit I'm not that inspired today but I'll try my best.
Today in the morning, I went to the beach. I stayed a while there sunbathing looking to the clouds and, guess what? Thinking about life, again. The clouds looked so peaceful. They seemed to be there comforting me, pure condensed water. They had no worries that moment, totally different from when it's raining, when they seem depressed. It's the same logic for human beings. Not for me though. I can act like a fluffy white cloud all the time, even if I'm completely blue. Life is my stage and I'm an actress, i would say, always trying to get the main role. I've been randomly crying everytime I get out of the role. That's why I almost don't get out of it anymore.
Music, my greatest passion, used to help me so much with all this sadness, now It's only supporting it. Every single song I hear or sing, there's a part I can relate with my "play". This long play, I hope, is getting to its climax. I would be lying if I said nothing really big has ever happened to me, because there were big deals in my life, but they've never come out the way I wanted to or they haven't had a proper end. I don't know how to explain that. It's probably because I'm a dreamer, One part of me still expects my life to be a fairytale where I'm the girl that the dreams can easily come true and everything is always perfect. The other part is pretty realistic and knows that this can't be true. Actually It thinks that life would be really boring without all the drama lol.
What I can say is: life is not easy, but that's what makes it so interesting.
That's why I need to think about it. But I just can't think that my situation is happening for my good, you know.
I just wish I had less superficial things to be excited about at the moment (??)
That's all...Cheers!
"What would you do if I sang outta tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and i'll sing you a song
And i'll try not to sing outta key
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends!"
*hoping*